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Aur ek kahani...Socho kabhi aisa ho? -
25th June 2008, 06:13 PM
Doston, Yeh ek dramatical andaz me ek kahaani likhne ki koshish ki hai ... Jo ek prostitute or lekhak ki beech ek raat ko chitrit (picturised) karne ki koshish hai...si pesh hai...
Jara gaur se..?
Roj ki hi taraha kaam sametne ke baad.…saamne lagi diwaar ghadi per nazar padi…..(are..!..10 baj gaye…) mai utha…khidki se baahar dekha barsaat ki fuhaarieN kuchh or tez ho chali thi…yooNto aasmaan kuchh ek baar pehle bhi baras hi chuka tha per sahi maayne me aaj mehsoos huva maano saawan aa hi gaya, aaj shaam se hi halki si fuhaarein baras rahi thi aasmaan se… Saawan ye shabd to maanoN…ek masti si bhar deta hai bheetar, or baarish to hamesha se hi meri pasand rahi hai… ..bachpan se hi bahut bhata hai mujhe baarishoN me bheegna, sunsaan sadkoN par nikal jaata tha or akela ghantoN bheegta. Per ab wo baat na rahi sab badal sa gaya, is siyaanepan or kuchh paane ki hod ne wo saari aazaadiyaaN hi chheen li.
Meine bag uthaya paas hi ke fast food outlet se…ek burgar liya or parking tak ja pahuncha, fuhaarieiN abtak mujhper bhi kuchh meherbaaN ho chuki thi...kuchh bheega hi gayi is tan ko bhi... car start ki or Burger khaate huve…chal diya apne thikaane ki taraf aw.wal to der hone per office canteen me hi kha liya karta tha, per jab mood na ho to fast food se hi kaam chalta hai, kyoNki ghar per kuchh banaana mere liye hamesha hi aalas ka vishay rehta..…roj ki kuchh eisi hi dincharya thi …kuchh khaas na tha jindgi me…subaah bag uthaaya office or der raatoN ko ghar.
RaatoN ki jagmagaati roshni ho or Delhi ki sadkeiN, kam-s-kam ye aaraam to hai ki us bheed-bhaad se kuchh to aaraam milta hai jo aksar office hours me jhelni padti hai. Rojgaar ki taalaash me kahaan-kahaaN se nahi aate log is Delhi me or achraj ye hai ki baawjood itni aabaadi ke… yahaaN har ek ko Sir chhupaane ka aasra or roti ka kuchh na kuchh intzaam mil hi jaata hai…waakai is Delhi ka Dil bahut bada hai, yahi kaaran hai shaayad ke sab jagaah log…keede makodoN ki tarah bikhre dikhaai dete hain, Haan per raat barhne ke saath ye kuchh khaamosh hone lagti hai ..yahi hai Delhi. Weise mai prefer bhi to karta hooN der raatoN ko Delhi ki sadkoN me safar, or wo bhi eisa mausam ho to kya kehna…bheegi si raat, khamboN ki roshni ke pratibimb sadkoN ko or chamakdaar bana rahe haiN…gaadi ka wiper kuchh apna sa hi raag sunaate huve... lagta hai itni jaldi kuchh badalne waala bhi nahi mausam ke is mizaaz me…or ye hawaaein bhi to reh reh kar baarish ki fuhaaroN ko tirchaa sa bana deti maano apne saath uda le jaana chaahti ho…in booNdoN ko, or usper Lata ji ki aawaaj me FM per bajta ye geet…( raat bhi hai kuchh bheegi bheegi....chaand bhi hai kuchh madham-madhaam….) maahaul ke mutaabik hi raag barsaa raha tha…..sangeet, hamesha se hi meri jindgi ka ek eham his.sa raha hai, kyoNki jab mai kisi ke saath nahi hota…to shaayad sangeet ke saath hota hooN.
Saamne daahini taraf Café Home ka signboard dekhkar achanak mizaaz ne karwat li …KyoN na ek coffee hi pi jaaye, yooNto aksar chaay hi peeta hooN, per for a change…Coffee bhi bhaati hai. Café Home ke paas hi me Car park karke bheetar pahuNcha…(kuchh ek jode wahaaN pehle se hi beithe huve the…shaayad meri hi taraah is musam me coffee ka lutf uthane aaye hoNge..) ek coffee order karke mai kuchh ekaant dekhkar paas ki hi ek window ke saath lagi table per jaakar baith gaya.... ek cigarate sulgaai or baahar barasti fuhaaroN ko ek-tak dekhne laga… abhi kuchh der hi hui thi ki achanak ek halki magar sam.mohit kar dene waali aawaaj ne meri ekaagrta (concentration ) ko todte huve …mera dhyaan apni taraf kheeNcha…
< Excuse me…! >
< Yes …> meine nazrieN uthate huve kaha….or….
“yooN laga maano meri hi cigarate ke dhuNve ne ek apsara ki si aakrati bana di ho” ……….. wo kuchh bheegi hui thi…kuchh hi paloN me meine use uper se neeche tak dekha ( “Waaw…Kya ladki hai…!!!” )
Halke white or pink flower prints me purple colour ki silk saari pehne ek ladki, umr yahi koi 24-25 saal ki rahi hogi, achchha khaasa uncha Kad, bhara-bhara sa zism, Rang saNwla ( jo ki hamesha se hi mere aakarshan ka kendra raha hai )… or usper wo teekhe se nain-naksh…badi-badi halke kaajal se saNwri madhosh karti wo nigaaheiN… Naak per ek chhoti si silver ki long, kuchh halke se gulaabi hoNth or gale me lal reshmi dor per latakta..ek silver ka taaweej. Or baal, BaaloN ka to kehna hi kya…ghane se bhalon ko bade hi saleeke se guNdha huva tha… kuchh ek naadaan chanchal si latieN phir bhi us chehre ko choomne ke khaatir uske gaaloN per bikhari hui thi…or unse tapakti wo booNdieN us chehre ko or bhi haseen bana rahi thi…kul milakar ek female perfection… (pata nahi…agar mere zehen me koi swapn sundari hoti to keisi hoti…per shaayad kuchh eisi hi hoti …lol )
< May I…join you > usne kuchh halke swar me kaha…
< offcourse…Please > weise meri aadat na thi ajnabiyoN se mel mulaakaat barhane ki… (per itna khoobsoorat sa aagrah mai thukra na saka )…
< Thanks..>
< Coffee chalegi…>
< thanks > usne haami bharte huve kaha.
Meine ek or coffee order ki…
Kuchh pal cigarate ke dhuveiN me maine use dekha or phir khamoshi todte huve kaha…
< Aap…… yahaaN is waqt… ? ...I mean alone ? >
< So what…? > (usne mujhper nazar uthakar dekhte huve kaha)
itne me coffee bhi aa gayi…wo apne kuchh bheege se aanchal se paani ki booNdeiN saaf karne lagi…or mai coffee mug ko apne hothoN se lagaaye bade dhyaan se phir use dekhne laga….Oh..! mai kuchh chauka…!
Usne mujhe prashn bhari nigaahoN se dekha..?
Maine nazrieN jhuka li…( jaldbaazi me coffee/ chaay peena meri aadaat si ho gai thi..so mai, phir jubaaN jala baitha tha mai ) apne aap me hi muskuraate huve meine use dekha….uski coffee abtak table per padi thi..
< coffee lo na..> maine baat barhate hue kaha
< haan mai kuchh thandi hone per peeti hooN >
< or mujhe jubaaN jalaane ka shauk sa hai shaayad > maine muskuraate huve kaha….
Halke swar me sangeet yahaaN bhi maahaul ko khushnuma bana raha tha, kuchh ek sip lene ke baad meine khaamoshi todte huve phir poochha….
< kya aap aksar yahaaN aati haiN…? >
< nahi…> usne sip lete huve jawaab diya…
< then ..? >
< customer ki taalash me…> usne bede hi sehej bhav me jawaab diya..
< What…? Are you a ………….? > ( maine idhar-udhar dekhte huve kuchh halki awaaj me kaha )
< Yes …I am.. > usne mujhe nazrieN utha kar dekha…ham donoN kuchh kshan (moments) ek doosre ko nazroN me dekhte rahe..phir meine sip lene ke bahane nazreiN jhuka li…or cigarate ko bujhate huve….phir uski taraf dekha..uski nigaahoN me abtak wahi prashn tha.
< So…kya socha hai aapne..>
< kis baare me..>
< are you interested…? >
< Sorry …but I’m not interested > Meine uski taraf dekhte huve jawaab diya..wo kuchh prashn bhari nigaahoN se mujhe dekhte huve boli..
< Really are you Sure…! )
< yaah > meine use dekhte huve jawaab diya.
< then I’m sorry …I wasted your time…>
< no its ok…>
wo apne purse me kuchh tatolne lagi….or kuchh saral andaaz me 20 rupey meri taraf barhate huve boli..< this is for coffee >
meine use muskuraate hove dekha or kaha…
< its ok…kyoNki aapne bhi to mujhe company di hai. >
usne unmane mann se rupey waapas purse me rakh liye..meine bill pay kiya or ham donoN uthkar chal diye…fuhaareiN ab kuchh or tez ho chali thi…ham gate per hi ruk gaye…ek sard hawa ka jhoNkha …apni nami ka ehsaas karwa gaya…meine us.se puchha…
< Weise … kis taraf jaana hai aapko…? > meine phir poochha
< Kuchh socha nahi abhi…> usne kuchh berukhe andaaz me kaha..
< or …Jaaogi keise..>
< I’ll take Auto > usne idhar-udhar dekhte huve jawaab diya..
< Per is baarish auto milega kya aapko ? chaaho to aap mere saath chal sakti ho, is dauraan soch lena…ki aapko kahaaN jaana hai or raaste me jahaaN theek lage utar jaana >
< Ok…> usne mujhe dekhte huve jawaab diya.
Ham donoN kuchh doudte hue car tak pahuNche…phir bhi hame kuchh had tak bhigo hi diya fuhaaroN ne, or ek baar phir car or nigaaheiN raahoN me daudne lagi..
Kuchh khaamoshi ke baad….baat chhedne ke iraade se meine us.se poochha…
< aapka naam kya hai >
< Pallavi >
< achchha naam hai... >
wo chup hi rahi….
< or mera naam Rakesh hai >
< Ji..> wo kehkar phir chup ho gayi ( jeise koi khaas lagaav na ho use jaan.ne me )
Mahaul me phir kuchh khaamoshi chha gai.. or khaamoshi todte huve meine us.se poochha…
< ek baat bataaogi.. Pallavi ? >
< ji > usne mujhe dekhte huve kaha..
< ye sab karna theek lagta hai kya >
( Kuchh pareshani si nazar aayi uske chehre me..)
< aap mujhe saamne bus stand ke paas drop kar dijiye… mai wahaaN se auto le looNgi > usne lagbhag meri baat kaat.te huve kaha…
< jawaab nahi dena chaahti..? > meine phir kaha..
< bas yaheen side me…Please > usne phir kaha…
meine car side me park ki…
< Thanks…thanks for the lift > kehte huve wo car se utarne lagi to meine use rokte huve kaha
Suno..Pallavi..!>
Wo ruki or bina kuchh kahe…prashnbhari nigaahoN se mujhe dekha.
< Kya aaj tumhe koi costumer mil paayega eise mausam me..>
Uski nigaahoN mai phir wiese hi sawaal the..…kuchh halke swar me usne kaha…
< aakhir aap chaahte kya haiN…? >
kuchh sakuchate huve meine us.se poochha..
< kya tum aaj ki raat mujhe company de sakti ho…>
< Matlab…? >
< mai tumhaare saath kuchh waqt bitana chaahta hooN…>
usne mujhe phir dekha or chehre ki jhunjhulahat se bahar aakar saral hote huve kaha….
< saaf kahiye na…agar Mann badal liya hai to..>
< nahi shaayad eisi baat to nahi, lekin… > meine kuchh sochte huve jawaab diya
< lekin kya…?, kam-s-kam mujhse mohobbat to nahi hui hai aapko…? > wo phir kuchh gambheer hote huve boli…
Mai apni muskuraahat rok na paya…maano bheetar se ek aawaaj aati ho…haan shaayad eisa hi kuchh hai…or wo bheetar ki aawaaj shabdoN me badal gayi…
< haaN eisa hi samajh lo …weise, mai tumhaara saath kuchh waqt bitana chaahata hooN > meine phir kuchh muskuraate huve kaha.
< aap bekaar mera or apna waqt barbaad karte haiN…mujhe mazaak pasand nahi hai… baat karne or waqt gujaarne ke liye aapko din ke ujaaloN me bahut ladkiyaaN mil jaaeingi… or weise bhi mai apne profession se samjhauta nahi karti >
( baap re baap..! itni gambheerta..ye prostitute hai..ya, koi business ticoon )
meine phir use dekha……per jaane kyon mann kuchh bandh sa gaya tha …jaane kya aakarshan tha usme…
< per mai mazaak nahi kar raha hooN ..mai sanjeeda hooN, kya aap mujhe aaj ki raat company dogi ? >
Wo waapas theek se baith gai or kuchh saral hote huve mujhe dekhkar boli….
< I charge 5000 rupees per night... and .. hotel or place aapki jim.mewaari hogi…agar aapko manjoor hai to mujhe koi eitraaz nahi hai….>
< boliye manzoor hai kya…? >
Mai kuchh pal khaamosh ho gaya… jaane kya chal raha tha zehen me…
Wo mujhe parhte huve boli < then leave…> usne door lock hataya or car se baahar nikal gai, ek tez hawa ka jhoNke phir ek baar use bhigo gaya…
< ok…I’m agree.. > use dekhkar ..ichchha nahi ho rahi thi…na keh paane ki..
usne phir mujhe dekha….< are you sure..? >
< yes … please come inside >
wo waapas car me aa gayi or chehre se paani ki booNdeiN hatate huve boli….
< then aapko 100% advance dena padega… >
Mai phir kuchh muskuraaya…or bola
< Vishwaas nahi hai mujhper >
< hamaare profession me ajnabiyoN per vishwaas nahi kiya jaata… >
Meine phir uske chehre ko dekha…or usne mujhe…? Ek gambheer or bhaav rahit chehra )
< Ok…> meine apna wallet check kiya…or 2000 rupey uski taraf barhate huve kaha abhi itne hi haiN mere paas…baaki raaste me ATM se le leiNge….chalega kya.. ? >
< theek hai…>
or ham phir ek baar chal diye …apne manzil ki taraf…traffic kuchh halka ho chala tha..so raahoN ko cheerti…car in tez hoti fuhaaroN me aage barhne lagi….meine use dekha….wo haalhi me aaye fuhaar ke jhoNke se bheegi apni saari theek kar rahi thi….wo waakai bahut khoobsoorat thi…zism to maano naap tol kar diya ho use us uperwale ne…
Meine ciagarate sulgaate huve us.se poochha…
< Cigarate..chalegi..>
< No thanks..>
< peeti hi nahi ho ya… >
< yaah… I don’t smoke >
< phir to tumhe mere peene se problem hogi >
< No its ok…mujhe aadat hai > usne saral hote huve kaha.
Mai beech beech me use dekhta or wo…is baat se kuchh bekhabar .. saamne bhigi si sadak ko…dhuNve ke kuchh reshe…aahista aahista uske chehre ki tarah barh rahe the…halke se naak ke paas ungli rakhte huve…wo sahej hone ki koshish kar rahi thi… ye dekhte huve meine Cigarate baahar faiNkte huve…kaha..
< tum chaaho to window glass kuchh down kar sakti ho..>
< usne phir meri taraf ek sawaal bhari nigaah se dekha....>
or mujhe un nigaahoN ka sawaal samajhte der na lagi…ki eisi tez fuhaaroN me window glass down nahi kiye jaate… (meri baat or hai..mai to aksar eise me bhi barsaat ke maze le hi leta hooN ).
< Sorry …bahut der se ‘tum’ keh raha hooN .. >
< No…its ok…aapko isme sahuliyat hai to chalega. >
kuchh der phir khaamoshi rahi apne darmiyaaN ( haaN halke se swroN me…FM per Kishor Da ka ek mera pasandida geet jaroor baj raha tha..…raat kali ek khwaab me aai…or gale ka haar hui… ) per is madhur sangeet se door mai kisi or uljhan me tha… samajh na paata tha …ki kya baat karooN or kahaaN se shuru karooN…ye apni tarah ka pehla anubhav tha mera…so…kuchh sankoch bhi tha…khaamoshi todte huve meine us.se kahaa…
< kahaaN chalna pasand karogi..>
< ye bataaiye ki aap kahaaN le jaana chaahte haiN…Marzi aapki hai..kyonki aaj ki raat aapne mujhe khareeda hai>
< Please ye ‘khareeda’ word use mat karo…meine sirf tumhaara samay chaha hai tumse >
< baat ek hi hai…mera samay, mere zism se juda hai >
< ye tumhaari mazboori bhi to ho sakti hai ? >
< ji ..nahi, ye meri mazboori nahi mera pesha hai >
< per tumhaari bhi to ichchhaaeiN hoti hi hoNgi >
< haaN hoti hai or wo ham is paise se poori karti haiN >
< married ho….? >
wo chup hi rahi…
< Don’t worry ..mai Deal me koi bargain nahi karooNga > meine muskuraate huve kaha…
< Nahi…single hi hooN > usi bhavrahit andaaz me usne jawaab diya.
< To tumhaare gharwale …? I mean kuchh kehte nahi tumko >
< Nahi ….mai akeli rehti hooN…>
< or jaan.ne waale…wo…? >
< Nahi mera koi jaan.ne waala nahi hai >
< Delhi ki hi ho…>
< Nahi..UP se >
< kab se ho Delhi me..? >
< 2 saaloN se >
Mai phir use dhyaan se dekhne laga ( ajeeb ladki hai, suna hai Prostitutes to saamne waale ko lubhane ki koshish karti haiN..per ye to kuchh alag hi hai ) wo bheegi si lateiN ab bhi us chehre per booNdeiN gira rahi thi…or chehre se lurhakti huvi wo booNdieN seedhi uske blouse per padti thi…jiski pardarshita ( transparency ) se bekhabar wo…apni baayiN or bheegi hui choti se tapakti paani ki booNdoN se khel si rahi thi…
Meine phir poochha
< tum is profession me kab se ho..>
wo kuchh ruk.kar boli….
< Pichhle ek saal se…>
< KyoN karti ho ye sab…? >
Wo kuchh na boli….chup rahi… shaayad jawaab na dena chaahti thi …meine baat badalte huve kaha….
< Do U like rain…? I just love it >
< Nahi …hamare kaam me Rain ek tarah se lose hai..so mujhe pasand nahi > usne saral hote huve kaha…
< itna jiyaada professional hona jaroori hai kya…ki chhoti-chhoti khushiyaaN bhi khatm ho jaaye >
< Kya aap roj itni hi der se ghar aate haiN >
< haaN aksar >
< kya itna jiyaada kaam jaroori hai >
mai samajh gaya uske kehne ka matlab…
< haaN achchha jawaab hai tumhaara >
< tum kahaN tak parhi ho >
< Some graduation >
< WaheeN UP se >
< haaN>
< tum koi job bhi kar sakti thi >
< kiya tha..call centre me kuchh samay >
< then what..>
< phir...wo band ho gaya…>
Baadal abtak usi raftaar se baras rahe the…maano khob baras jaana chaahta ho wo aasmaan…ham kabhi kabhi khaamosh ho jaate per wipers.. apni continuous rotate se maahaul me halka shor jaari rakhte…
Gaadi apni hi raftaar per thi…so faasla khud – b- khud kam hota jaa raha tha…
Or kareeb 20 munite ke safar ke baad ham …Delhi se satii…ek nayi duniya me the…bade bade shopping malls jo der shaamoN tak ronak me rehte haiN…per ab shaayad theher gaye the…achanak dhyaan aaya..ki mujhe ATM se cash bhi nikaalna haiN…
< Hame yahaan ATM mil jaayega > meine car side me park ki…or us.se poochha
< tum aana chaahogi..? >
usne baahar mausam ka mizaaz dekhte huve kaha..< No thanks mai yaheeN wait karti hooN… agar aapko koi etraaz na ho to…>
< ok, no prob. .. tum kuchh khaana chaahogi..>
< No thanks >
< Don’t be a formal >
< No please…I already had ..>
Mai lagbhag bhaagta huva uper pahuNcha…ATM se rupey nikaale, paas hi ke ek Ice Cream parlour se Ice Cream li or phir ek baar unhi fuhaaroN se jujhta.. tezi se car me aa baitha...or apni zulfieN sehlaate huve bola...
< Weise …is mausam ka bhi apna hi maza hai..>
< lagta hai bahut bhata hai aapko bheegna..> wo mujhe dekhte huve boli…
< haaN…pata nahi eisa kya hai is mausam me ..ke sab khushnuma sa lagta hai..sab hara hara sa…baahar bhi or bheetar bhi. >
kehte huve meine …ek Ice Cream uski taraf barha di....
< No ..thanks >
le lo….mai 2 laaya hooN > meine muskuraate huve kaha…<
usne phir kaha < no thanks >
Meine phir poochha < khaati hi nahi ho ..ya..>
< nahi eisi koi baat nahi ..>
< then what…? ….Gar ehsaan na leti ho kisi ka to… baad me iski keemat chuka dena… sirf 15 rupey ki hi hai >
Usne muskuraate huve Ice Cream le hi li.
< tumhe pata hai pichhle 45 munite me tum pehli baar muskuraai ho..or mujhe kuchh sukoon mila ki tumne mere saath kuchh comfortable feel kiya >
< nahi eisi koi baat nahi hai…mera nature hi kuchh eisa hai or weise bhi ekdam kisi se …khul paana thoda mushkil bhi hota hai mere liye…>
(mai muskuraaya…My kind of Girl )
< Matlab ab mujhe kuchh jaan gayi ho..>
< haaN kuchh had tak to.. > usne phir muskuraate huve kaha..
phir maine pocket se 3000 rupey nikaale or use thama diye…. usne ek sarsari nazar daalne ke baad rupey Purse me rakhte huve kaha..
< Thakns >
meine kuchh mazaakiya andaaz me kaha…< Gin to lo ..kaheeN kam huve to…>
usne kuchh muskuraate huve mujhe dekha…or kaha…
< its ok… aapko jaankar lagta nahi ki aap eisa kareiNge..)
Jawaab me mai bhi muskuraa diya …
< Ek baat kahooN ….>
< ji kahiye..>
< Tumhaari personality me ek ghazab ka aakarshan hai >
Wo phir halke se muskuraate huve boli < Thanks…actualy ham isi zism ka hi to khaate haiN …so sab maintain to karna hi padta hai. >
< per eisa nahi hai…kyoNki shareer ek alag cheez hai per kuchh to hota hai insaan ki personality me jo doosroN ko uski taraf aakarshit karta hai or shaayad wo ek aakarshan hai tum.me >
< Dekho tumhaare saath …aaj safar ka pata hi nahi chala >
meine car park ki…or ek baar phir un tez si fuhaaroN se jujhte huve, ham lock kholkar bheetar chal diye…
< Ye hai mera ghar..>
< or aapki family ? >
< mai akela hi rehta hooN >
< aapki shaadi nahi hui..! >
< ji nahi mai bhi aap hi ki tarah is sheher me akela hi hooN > meine muskuraate huve kaha. Wo bade dhyaan se ghar ko idhar udhar dekhti hui apne choti me ungliyaaN ghumati hui boli..
< Ye..Aapka hi ghar hai...? >
< kyoN tumhe shaq hai kya..> meine muskuraate huve kaha.
< nahi eisi baat nahi hai….bahut khaali khaali hai na isi liye >
< HaaN…abhi haal hi me khareeda hai… pichhle mahine hi…or akela hi rehta hooN so…jiyaada kuchh saaman khareeda bhi nahi...>
< Oh ..! >
< Tum chaaho to fresh ho aao…or tumhe perhez na ho to…mere kapde use kar sakti ho…bathroom wahaaN hai us side me..>meine use ishaare se bataaya.
< theek hai....ye kehte huve wo…bathroom ki taraf chal padi.>
Phir meine bhi change kiya…ghadi…ki suiyaaN 11.30 bajne ke sanket de rahi thi…
< Pallavi tum chay piyogi…> meine kitchen se hi pukaarkar puchha.
< HaaN ..chalegi..> usne bheetar se jawaab diya.
Or kuchh hi der me mai chay bana laaya …kamre me aaya to Pallavi apne khule baaloN ko towel se poNch rahi thi…chehre per halki paani ki booNdieN….use or aakarshak bana rahi thi or saari ka pallu poori taraah farsh per bikhra pada tha…nigaaheiN kuchh paloN ko maanoN waheeN atak gayi...usne mujhe dekha per turant koi pratikriya (reaction) na thi uski…wo usi beparwaah andaaz me apni zulfoN ko sukhaati hui… pallu ko haath me liye mere paas aakar baith gai …
Meine use chaay ka cup thamaya or phir ek cigarate sulgayi ...chaay ke saath cigarate meri puraani aadat hai so kambakht chhut.ti hi nahi…
< Tumhe phir ..problem hogi…>
< nahi, aap pee sakte haiN…kyonki itni problem nahi hoti mujhe >
< tumne..Kabhi pee hai pehle..>
< haaN ek do baar koshish ki …per achchha nahi laga…>
Mai chaay ki ek do chuskiyaaN lete huve…khidki tak pahuNcha..or ek lamba sa kash liya…
< Chaai achchhi banaayi hai aapne… > usne ek aadh sip lete huve kaha..
< HaaN ek chaay hi hai jo mai dil se banaata hooN warna to kaamchor hi hooN.. >
< to aapko shaadi kar leni chaahiye…>wo kuchh muskuraate huve boli
< HaaN …mai bhi yahi sochta hooN > ek do lambe se kash lagaakar meine cigarate baahar faiNk di… dhuNwa chhodte huve mai waapas uske paas aakar baith gaya..>
< ek baat bataogi…Pallavi ..! >
< HaaN poochhiye..> wo ek sip lekar cup table per rakhte huve boli …
< Tum itni sunder ho…Parhi bhi ho kuchh had tak..>
< tumne ye ghatiya kaam kyoN chuna…>
Wo phir kuchh chup si ho gayi…..
< Dekho…tum na batana chaaho…to alag baat kyoNki tum bound nahi ho is tarah ke interview ke liye.. per mai jaan.na chaahuNga…KyoNki kuchh hai jo mujhe khalta hai..yahaaN >
< Kya kijiyega jaankar…? …………. ek raat ki mehmaaN hooN mai…aapne 5000 Rupey kharch kiye haiN mujhper…beshaq badi rakam na ho aapke liye…per itni chhoti bhi to nahi…ki raat in fizul baatoN me bitaayi jaaye….eise mauke jindgi me hamesha nahi bante…so Enjoy kijiye…>
< HaaN rupey to jaroor kharch kiye haiN…shaayad or isme jiyaada ya kam ki bhi koi baat nahi hai, per mai tumhe bhog na paaunga….yooN istarah..>
< To phir aap kis tarah bhogna chaaheiNge…? >
< jahaaN ek taraf tumhaari koi mazboori ho…wo ..bhogna na reh jayega…wo to…shoshan huva na…>
< kuchh muskuraai wo is baar….Bade ajeeb mard haiN aap…pichhle ek saal me kai mardoN ke saath hambistar rahi…per…aapki ye soch samajh na aayi mujhe…Maaf kijiyega…Kya naam hai aapka…? …HaaN Rakesh ji …….. ya to aap koi mahaatma hone ka dhoNg karte hain…ya aapko apni mardaangi per kuchh shaq hai..? >
kuchh jhuNjhulahat bhi thi uski is baat me..per usne kahi jaroor muskuraate huve thi ..!
Meine muskuraate huve kaha …( haaN kuchh mushkil hota hai it tarah ke kataksh per muskuraana..per mujhe aadat thi…dostoN ne kai baar is tarah ke zumle kase the mujhper …mazaak hi me sahi…)
< jahaaN tak mahaatma ka sawaal hai wo mai nahi hooN or shaayad ban bhi na paauN…kyoNki wo ban.ne ke liye pehle uski paribhasha ( defination ) to pata honi hi chaahiye…jo mujhe nahi maalooM ………or rahi baat….Mardaangi ki…to…sahi hi kaha hai tumne…ye shaq bhi ek aam insaan ko tabtak rehta hi hai..jabtak wo kisi ke saath is tarah ka sambandh na bana le…kitni ajeeb baat hai na …ki hame sab prove karna padta hai….jatana padta hai…apni ichhaein, Apna pram, apna tyaag or kisi bhi taraah ki kaabliyat tak or to or…apni mardaangi bhi…beshaq wo ‘Kaam’ dwara ho ya …kisi abla per bal prayog karne se…sab jatana padta hai..(mai phir kuchh haNsa) >
< Usne mujhe achraj bhari nigaahoN se dekha….or phir muskuraate huve boli…to aap ye kehna chaaheinge…ki aap abtak Virgin haiN… >
< HaaN….Shaayad ? >
(wo phir muskuraai..) < YahaaN bhi ‘shaayad’ kuchh pak.ka bhi hai aapke baare me >
< HaaN..kyoNki virginity ki paribhasha bhi sahi tarah se samajh na paaya kabhi…aatmik ya Shaaririk, tum kis virginity ki baat karti ho > meine bhi muskuraate huve jawaab diya
< Aapki umr kya hai…! > wo nigaaheiN mujhe parhte huve boli..
< thirty two >
< And still….Don’t tell me..phir aapne kiya kya hai aaj tak..> wo haNsne lagi.
< isme HaNsne ki kya baat hai laakhoN-karoroN hoNge meri hi tarah >
< Phir to aapko bilkul der nahi karni chaahiye…ye bilkul sahi mauka hai..isi bahaane apni mardangi ka shaq bhi door ho hi jaayega…aapka..> wo phir muskuraai…or wo apne us dhulte se aanchal ki parwaah kiye bina mere kuchh or kareeb aakar boli…
< ab itna bhi sankoch keisa ?…pay kiya hai aapne mujhe …or, pyaas bhi hogi hi..>
< haaN hai ..wo to swabhavik hi hai >
< to phir deri kyoN…KuNva khud pyaase ke paas aaya hai..> ye kehkar usne mere kaande per haath rakh diya.
< Nahi …Pallavi ..…Pehle tum mujhe bataaogi…ki ye kaam hi kyoN…? >
Wo kuchh jhuNjhula kar khadi ho gayi…< kyoN jaan.na chaahte haiN aap ye sab…ek raat ke mehmaaN se itni hamdardi kyoN..>
< Bas utsukta samajh lo…kyoNki mai kabhi samajh hi nahi paaya stree Mann ko..aaj mauka hai to samajhna chaahta hooN >
< wo aap mard log kabhi samjheNge hi nahi…kyoNki aap log stree Mann ko tab samajh paaeinge na jab..aapke zehen se uska Tann hate..> wo kuchh ruaaNsi si hokar boli…
Ham Allahbaad ke rehne waale haiN..mere father…BSF me the to aksar baaher hi rehte the..mother hi hame mujhe or meri 2 saal chhoti behen ko sambhaalti thi..….jab mai 10 standard paas karke…11th me pahuNchi …to un dinoN meri dosti ek ladke se hui..mujhse..koi 3 saal bada tha, Allahbaad ke hi ek collage me parhta tha…ham aksar milne lage..or ek doosre ke kareeb aa gaye…meri us umr ke hisaab se…mujhe …uski har baat ..pasand aati thi.. lamba kad, achchha khaasa built, bade brown silky se baal, sharp features, uske baat karne ka tareeka, cigarate peene ka style, chalna….sab kuchh… kul milaakar mera complete hero tha wo…..bas ek aadat achchhi na thi uski …aksar physical hona chaahta tha…( per is khayaal se ki…mera tann mann sab kuchh to usi ki khaatir hi to hai..) so mai jiyaada inkaar bhi na karti thi…)...haalaNki collage pahunchte pahuNchte..meri kuchh ek friends ne bataya bhi ki..Vikas..( Ji, Vikas naam tha uska) ko unhone kuchh ek ladkiyoN ke saath flurt karte bhi dekha hai..per ye aadat hoti hai purshoN ki or wo bhi us umr me…so…mai ise sanjeedgi se na leti thi. Phir collage ke hi dinoN me mere second year ke exams ke samay…Maa ko do-teen roj nazdiki rishtedaar ke ghar shaadi me jaana pada ..so..wo chhoti behne ko bhi apne saath le gai…us roj mai Vikas ko ghar per le aayi… ghar khaali paakar wo physical hone ki jid karne laga…mai usko or khud ko bhi jiyada der rok na saki…us roj ham apni seemaaein bhi laaNgh gaye, …or waapsi per Maa ko kisi padausi se Vikas ke ghar per rukne or hamaare sambandhoN ki khabar ho hi gayi … jab Papa leave per ghar aaye to unper bhi ye waaqya khul gaya…or…mera collage chhudva diya gaya… kuchh samay baad ek roj…mujhe dekhne ladke waale bhi aa gaye..ye sab itna chupchaap or jaldbaazi me huva…ki…mujhe pata hi na chala… wo mujhe pasand bhi kar gaye..Papa ne engagement haathoN haath karwakar…shaadi ki taareekh 6 maheene baad tay kar di or waapas chale gaye,…. mai kuchh samajh na paayi, sirf 20 ki hi umr me..papa ne..mujhe us ajnabi se baaNdhne ki thaan li thi…or wo bhi tab jabki mai shareer or aatma se kisi or ki ho chuki thi…Meine Vikas se is baare me baat ki…per Vikas kuchh karta na tha or weise bhi uske gharwale hamare rishte ko sweekar na karte kyoNki hamaari jaatiyaaN bhi alag-alag thi, or wo log bhi uske liye ladki dekh rahe the, to Vikas ki salaah per hamne ghar se bhaag jaane ka faisla kiya..so ek roj meine kuchh paise ghar se uthaaye.. maa ke naam ek letter chhodkar uske saath chali gayi…hamne tay kiya ham Delhi jaaeiNge..or kuchh kaam talaash karke shaadi kar leNge, or is taraah ham Delhi aa gaye.
Kuchh ek Maheene to gujar gaye..uske or mere paisoN ke sahaare…per phir mushkileiN aane lagi..( uska josh ab kuchh thanda nazar aane laga wo kuchh niraash sa rehta tha ) Phir ek roj usne mujhe kisi call centre ke manager se milwaya ki filhaal wo mujhe night shift me kaam dilwa deNge..
Jabtak mera job nahi lagta..kam-s-kam tum to kuchh kar hi lo, mai tabtak Mammy ko manakar kuchh or rupey lekar aa hi jaauNga, or wo chala gaya.…idhar 2 saptaah gujar gaye per Vikas nahi aaya…or ek roj Manager ne mere saath jabardasti ki…or ..mai uski hawas ka shikaar ho gai, baad me jab maine use Police ki dhamki di to usne mujhe bataya ki…Vikas ne us.se 5000 rupey liye the mujhe uske paas bhejne ke liye, kyoNki uske paas paise nahi the ghar jaane tak ke liye or uske papa ka phone aksar aata tha mere office me, wo uski shaadi tay kar chuke the.. or abtak to uski shaadi bhi ho gai hogi…( mujhe apne kaanoN per vishwaas na huva…Vikas mere saath eisa nahi kar sakta…mai cheekh uthi ) tum chaaho to pata kar sakti ho.. mai tumhe aane jaane ka kharch de doonga…or baat na bane to waapas aa jaana mai tumhe kaam per to rakh hi looNga...or aage tumhaari marzi hai agar chaaho to Police ko bhi bata sakti ho….mujhe beshaq kuchh saza ho jaaegi… per tumhaara kya hoga tab..tum apni is fati izatt ka kya karogi.
Mai toot chuki thi… waapas apne ghar pahunchi..to Maa mujhe dekhkar choNk gayi… or is gujre waqt ka hisaab poochha to meine rote huve sab bata diya…wo bhi rone lagi…it.tefaqan Papa bhi ghar per hi aaye huve the…mujhe ghar per dekhkar…kuchh pareshaan se ho gaye…Maa ne saara waaqya unhe bata diya… wo mujhe Vikas ke ghar lekar gaye…per uske pita ne ek na suni or kaha ki uski shaadi ho chuki hai or wo kaam ke silsile me doosre sheher gaya hai, … weise bhi…shaadi se pehle apna zism…baaNt.ti phirti ladki ko mai apne ghar me laata bhi nahi, unke ye shabd sunkar..mere pita ka sir jhuk gaya wo kuchh na keh sake..Vikas ke pita sheher ke robdaar logoN me se the or shaayad papa ye baat jaante the…
Unhone mera haath thaama or wahaaN se chal diye… Ham ghar aa gaye…or kuchh der khaamosh rehne ke baad mujhe paas bulakar kaha…Dekho beti mujhe dhyaan se suno mai tumhaare lagaaye pichhle kalank ko abtak na dho paaya hooN…tumhaari chhoti behen ki shaadi…usi ladke se badi mushkiloN se tay ho paayi hai…unhone hamaari Izat rakh li …so shaadi 6 maheene me hi honi hai…Ab bas tumse yahi guzaarish hai ki …tab tak tum is ghar me mat aana, warna uski shaadi ko mushkil ho jaayegi…uske baad…tum chaaho to laut sakti ho…mai paal looNga tumhe is kalank ke saath bhi…sir jhukakar hi sahi….or wo rone lage.
Bas wo baat mai bhool na paayi…chubh si gai wo baat…or mai waapas Delhi aa gai..waheeN usi call centre me…or kuchh maheenoN me wo call centre bhi band ho gaya… tab hi se mai us Manager ke hisaab se jindgi jeene lagi..or…aaj..tak jee rahi hooN…>
Wo aaNkheiN….abtak poori tarah bheeg chuki…thi…uske aaNsu kuchh syaah ho chale the…Maano us kaajal ke bahaane uska saara dard or kaalikh uske chehre per bikhar gaye hoN…
< ek galati ki bahut badi saza mili mujhe…bahut badi….>
< HaaN sahi kehti ho tum…is tarah ki galatiyaaN aksar hoti haiN…or aksar ladkiyoN ko mehNgi padti haiN wo galatiyaaN, per mai hairaan hooN…ke tumhaare apnoN ne tak tumhaara saath na diya..>
< haan wahi to baat hai insaan ke bure waqt me koi uska saath nahi deta…>
< per ab tum kya kar rahi ho..? wo jo kiya wo to naadaani me mila dhokha tha….per ab…? >
< kyoNki ab mai or kuchh kar bhi nahi sakti hooN…so isiliye ye sab karti hooN >
< Abhi tumhaari umr hi kya hai…>
< …23 saal..>
< or tum sochti ho ki apne is zism ko tum kuchh or saal cash karwa sakti ho…lekin socha hai phir kya hoga…>
< jo hona tha wo ho chuka …ab is.se bura kuchh nahi ho sakta..>
< KyoN …poori jindgi padi hai tumhaare saamne…phir se jindgi banaane ki koshish karo…>
Wo Hanste huve boli…< phir ek nayi shuruvaat…Rakesh ji bolna aasaan hai…ye jamaana achchhe ko achha nahi hone deta or aap to bure ko achchha banane ki baat kehte haiN…>
< KyoN nahi…sab log ek se nahi hote is duniya me..tum jindgi naye seere se shuru karo, rojgaar talaashne me, mai bhi tumhaari madad karooNga… or phir tum koi haath bhi thaam sakti ho…>
< Rojgaar haan wo bhi kahaaN milta hai…aaj kal ..aap kya sochte haiN…meine koshish nahi ki…per logoN ki ruchi ‘Hunar se jiyaada figar’ me paayi to socha kyoN na isko hi rojgaar bana looN … or rahi doosri haath thaamne ki baat…aaj kal achchhi khaasi ladkiyoN ka haath koi nahi thaamta…paise ke aabhaav me…to is badnaam ladki ka haath kon thaamega.>
< KyoN, kai hoNge…jo yooN saNkuchit na sochte hoN >
< kya aap sochte haiN is taraah se…>
< nahi, mai bhi nahi sochta…>
< To kya aap ye sab sun.ne ke baad… ki….mere itne mardoN se shaaririk sambandh rahe…mera haath thaameiNge…??? >
Uski aaNkhoN me ek eisa PrashN ChiNh bana ki meri soch or mere poore aakaash me garh gaya…maano.. kisi ne meri jubaaN per angaare rakh diye ho… uska prashn maanoN, zehen or ZubaaN ke beech aakar faNs gaya.
< KyoN…Rakesh ji, mushkil ho gaya na jawaab dena.. >
( mai nazrieN na mila paaya…)
Wo muskuraai < Koi baat nahi Rakesh ji..aapko sharminda hone ki jaroorat bhi nahi hai…..Aurat ki ye kismat eisi hi hai…uski pavitrata…badi keemti hoti hai…ek baar gayi to gayi…phir wo agni pariksha ke baad bhi sweekar nahi ki jaati…par purushoN ka eisa kuchh nahi…wo lakh paap karke bhi pavitra haiN, unke prayashchit…bade saste haiN >
Wo apni jhoothi muskuraahat se apni nami ko na chhupa paayi…
mai abtak usko dekhta tha…wo mere kareeb aayi…or boli…
< Mai aaj bahut khush hooN …ki itne barsoN me kisi ne mere Tann ki parwaah na karte huve …mere Mann ko bhi parhna chaaha…mai chaahuNgi ki…aap mere saath ye raat bitaayeiN…sirf isliye nahi ki…aapne mujhe aaj ki raat khareeda hai balki is liye bhi ki…mujhe aaj ye Tann sachmuch kisi se baaNtne ki chaah hui….>
< ab mai ye na kar paauNga…ab ye mere liye paap ho jaayega…>
< KyoN..per ab to mai apni khushi se ye Chaahati hooN >
< tumne kuchh der pehle poochha tha na mujhse…ki mera haath thaamoge…>
Usne mujhe prashn bhari nigaahoN se dekha..?
< HaaN…mai thaamta hooN tumhaara haath…abhi isi waqt… Samajhti ho mujhe is kaabil…Bolo Pallavi..! mai tumse tumaara haath or saath maangta hooN deti ho…karti ho mujhper vishwaas…? Uske baad hi mai tumhaare zism ko chhuvuNga >
Wo ek dam hairaan ho gayi…maano kuchh eisa suna ke apne kaanoN per vishwaas na ho usko…per chehre per bhaav badalte huve boli ..
< Aap paagal haiN kya…ya phir mahaan ban.ne ki koshish kar rahe haiN…?>
< mai ye sab nahi jaanta….per shaayad tumse mohobbat hi ho gayi hai mujhe… or ye to shaayad…usi pal ho gayi thi..jab tumhe aaj pehli dekha tha…>
< Aap dhokha de rahe haiN khud ko…or mujhe bhi, tab aapki aaNkhoN me ..Vaasna thi…jab aapne mujhe company dene ko kaha tha…kyoNki ham streeyaaN purushoN ko…unki nigaahoN me parh leti haiN…or jo aapko rokta tha wo aapka sankoch…ya samaaj ka darr tha…jise aap purush log mariyaada kehte ho…>
< Haan …tum sahi kehti ho Pallavi…! Ham dikhawa hi karte haiN maryadit hone ka…jabki usme maryada jeisa kuchh nahi hota >
< or ab jo aap keh rahe haiN Rakesh ji….wo Mohobbat nahi hai..Sahaanubhuti hai…aap apni soch ko galat shabdoN ka jaama pehna rahe haiN..>
< Nahi eisa kuchh bhi nahi hai….mujhe sachmuch tumse mohobbat ho gayi hai…mai khud first sight love me believe nahi karta tha..per aaj eisa mehsoos kiya hai meine…. or jab tumne mujhse sawaal kiya tha ki kya mai tumhaara haath thamuNga…tab..us waqt kuchh paloN ko mere zehen me bhi Samaaj or riwaaz, mere apne kya kaheiNge ye sab aaya tha …or to or mera apna…aatmvishwaas bhi dol gaya tha kuchh paloN ko…tumhare shabd Angaare se lage the mujhe…>
< Wahi to… Rakesh ji… wahi mai kehna chaahti hooN…poori umr aap in angaaroN per nahi chal paaeinge…mujhe na kah paaeiN beshaq…per khud jaleiNge…or wo sab mujhe aapka apraadhi bana dega…>
< Nahi eisa kuchh bhi nahi hai…ab mujhe kisi ki parwaah nahi hai…mai weise bhi jindgi ke sangharshoN se akela hi ladta raha hooN …or rahi baat meri family ki…wo mujhper vishwaas karte hain or mere faisloN ka sam.maan bhi karte haiN…wo tumhe apna hi leiNge..or samaaj iski to maine kabhi fikr hi nahi ki…>
< Ab bolo kya kehti ho…..thamti ho mera haath…duniyabhar ke eish-o-aaraam ka to mai koi waada nahi karta per do waqt ki roti, tann dhakne ko kapda…ek chhat to de hi sakta hooN tumhe… bolo kya bolti ho…? >
Pallavi….kuchh keh na saki….sir jhukaaye khadi rahi mere aage…mai baar baar poochhta raha….or jawaab me uski aaNkhoN se moti –moti booNdieN barasne lagi….( abtak baahar bhi aasmaan tez aawaaj ke saath joroN se barasne laga tha…bheetar or baahar bas paani hi paani tha…Pallavi…ka blouse phir bheeg chuka tha uski apni hi barsaat se…meine uske kareeb pahuNchkar..farsh par gira uska aaNchal waapas uske kaandhe per rakhte huve kaha….< tum eise hi bahut achchhi lagti ho…or mujhe tumhaare saath chalne me hamesha kushi hi hogi…>
usne mujhe nazreiN uthakar dekha….or ..mere seene se lipat kar foot-foot kar rone lagi…
Maine deewaar ghadi ki taraf dekha….raat ke 1.30 baj chuke the…suno raat bahut ho gayi hai ab tum so jaao, ham kal subhe baatein kareinge..wo kuchh muskuraai or aaNsu poNchhte huve boli…
< per mai aaj aapke paas hi souNgi…>
ye kehkar wo meri god me hi so gayi…..mai dheeme prakaash me der raat tak Pallavi ka chehra dekhta raha …wo aansuN se geela blouse bhi abtak sookh chuka tha…per chehre per aaNsuoN ke nishaaN saaf bataate the ki is registaan me barsoN baad baadal toot kar barse haiN…or phir na jaane kab meri aaNkh lag gayi.
Subah jab aaNkh khuli or saamne deewar ghadi per nazar padi, 9 baj chuke the …Pallavi bistar per nahi thi…( shaayad bathroom me hogi..maine pukaara Pallavi…Pallavi…per koi aawaaj na thi…mai utha..saamne table per pade ek letter per nazar padi….to aaNkheiN fati ki fati reh gayi….usper likha tha…
Dear Rakesh ji….Bade mard dekhe in teen chaar saaloN me….unki niyat ko bhi parha…sab ek se badkar ek bhookhe the…per jindgi me pehli baar koi Mard dekha…jiski mardaangi per mujhe hamesha garv rahega….or khushi bhi ki ek raat ko hi sahi…mujhe bhi ek sachche dil se chaahne waala mila…ab apni kismat se koi shakaayat nahi mujhko…per mai aapke laayak nahi….wo jo kaalikh hai na kalank ki…wo meri aatma per bhi nishaan bana chuki hai…or mai nahi chaahti ki aap sa achchha insaan…kabhi…us kaalikh ke rang me raNge..per ye mat samajhiyega…ki..mai Vishya thi so apni jaat dikha hi gai…mai waada karti hooN aapse…ab baaki ki jindgi….shareer bechkar nahi balki…aap ki hi taraah…mehnat karke bitaauNgi…or agar eisa na kar saki to…Allahabad waapas chali jaaungi, apne ghar….
Mai ye Paise yaheeN chhod rahi hooN…kyoNki mujhe meri is raat ki jo keemat jo sam.maan aap se mili hai….wo kaafi hai meri baaki ki jindgi bitaane ke liye…HaaN aapki Ice Cream udhaar rahi…agar jindgi me kuchh izzat kama paayi or ham phir mile to…jaroor chuka dooNgi….
Or haaN mujhe sadkoN or Restaurant me taalaash mat kijiyega..ab mai aapko wahaaN kabhi nazar na aaungi…
Meri saari shubhkaamnaaein aapke saath.
Aapki Pallavi
< Pallavi ‘kaash’..tumne mujhper vishwaas kiya hota..> in lafzoN ke saath mere haath se letter jameen per chhoot gaya…or ek tez haawa ka jhoNkha kya aaya saare not jameeN per bikhar gaye…mai besudh sa get ki taraf dauda…per baahar koi na tha…door door tak koi na tha..aasmaan kuchh saaf ho chala tha…lagta hi na tha ki kal itna joroN se barsa ho…
Kai din gujar gaye…mai usi waqt aata jaata raha..per Pallavi phir kabhi raahoN me na mili….aaj 6 maheene huve us waaqye ko…per Pallavi phir kabhi nazar na aayi raahoN me..Is bheed me kaheen kho gai wo.
YaadoN ke naam per baaki hai to to bas wo uska Chehra…or darta hoon ke Waqt ke saath kaheen ye Chehra bhi dhuNdhla gaya to…kya karooNga…keise dhooNdooNga use… Apni koi nishaani bhi to na di usne.
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* Edited and Decorated By Vivek singh
Apni marzi se kahaaN apne safar ke hum haiN,
Rukh hawaaoN ka jidhar ka hai udhar ke hum haiN,
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