Feelings of a mother........

[amit7600]

THEN......

Welcome you, my baby...

It still seems just yesterday, when I was playing in the mud
It was only recently, that I was running after a butterfly...

Wasn't it just yesterday, when I laughed like a child?
Yes it was only yesterday, when I talked to the wind...

It was so recently, that I was amazed to see the rainbow
and it happened recently, that I danced alone...

And now..... everything has changed suddenly...
When I felt you come alive in me...

When I knew you existed in me
breathed the air that I breathe
and eat the food that I eat...

How did this happen baby???
How did you know I was craving for you???
How did you know that I needed you in my life???
How did you know that I couldn't wait to hold you in my arms???

Who told you my baby, that your mother was ready for you?
Who told that your mother couldn't live without you anymore?
Who told you to surprise me when I expected your arrival the least?
Who told you to make me alive, when my life was losing its sheen???

I know God loves me a lot!
And knows that I am ready to take care of you...

I welcome you into my world baby...
Come and make me alive again...

And all that I used to do as a child
let's do it all together again...

Make me feel alive my baby
your ma welcomes you......

Now.....

Why???

To,

My baby...

Why did you leave me baby?
Was I that bad a mother?
Where did I go wrong?
What did I do to harm you?

Where were you, God?
Were you not around?
Why didn't you save her?
Did you not want to?


What more could i have done?
What did I not do for her?
Why do I have to go through this?
Why take someone else's life, to teach me a lesson?


And what lesson is there to be learnt?
That I should not have loved?
That I should not have expected to meet my own child?
That it was wrong to have dreamt so much?


What am I to make of all this, God?
At least tell me what am I being punished for?
What could I have possibleydone, to incur such wrath?
Again, why punish her, for any faults that were mine?


She could not have made any mistakes!
She didn't even get to see the world...
She didn't even open her eyes
My poor little one...


She lived inside me
and she died there too
The womb that was once her haven
now feels like a taboo

How can I look at myself again
and not feel guilty?
How can I ever forgive myself
for being so careless?


How can anything ever compensate
for a loss so big?
I will wait for your answer, God
till eternity...


And one day I shall come to you, baby
Will you please wait for me?
I will hug you and kiss you
and I will never let you go my darling...

With all my love,

Your ma

Poet:The Nostalgic Poet Ms Shilpi Kumari.....

[amit7600]

how one dimensional we have become....we keep looking at our sorrows and think we are the most unfortunate person in this universe.....how wrong we are.....letz be realistic....letz keep living........