Frightened to say -
25th April 2005, 10:35 PM
I spent all my time thinking,
worrying, and frightend to say,
Say that four letter word I know is in my heart.
Too Scared of your reaction,
too frightened by your voice,
I guess somehow I just never got the nerve.
Now that you are gone,
such a short time without you,
Seems way too long.
Then I heard a rumor,
and anger was in my voice.
So then I searched for a reason,
a way to break the chain,
a chance to give up and just let go.
A reason to forget about the past of you and me,
and start with a whole new begining.
I thought for a long time,
stared into space,
thought of an answer,
and it took many hours,
As I lay in my bed thinking.
I found an answer -- and this is my result-
"Move on with out you...
even though I go against my word
where I promised to wait for you,
I must do it."
Somehow, something told me I could not.
I began to think about you,
and this thought got harder and harder for me to do.
As you did everything right.
I miss your touch, your kiss, and most of all you and US!
I still sit and wonder with a feeling so strong- could it be love?
And then I turn... as that thought began to scare me.
I realize the answer is, Yes!
Yes! I love you!
meri har chahat se pehle ek chahat hogi
wo chahat hamesha tum hogi
ab to chahna hi reh gaya hai zindagi main
na jane yeh chahat kab puri hogi
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